Poem – Dear Best Friend

Cheer up best friend
Don’t give up yet
Please don’t do
Something you
Would regret.
I’m here to tell
You it’ll be alright.
Ill be there for
You every dam night.
You have so much
To live for
It just wouldn’t be right
It would literally
Kill me,
If you took your life tonight.
I love you like
Another sister,
That I always will.
And when you’re
Feeling down and weak,
Ill help you
Up that hill.
Because you are beautiful
And you are strong.
Who gives a shit
If they think im wrong.
But we all need someone
When times get real hard,
Just keep the faith boo
And keep moving on!

Procrastination

Procrastination is the action of delaying or postponing something. The word has origin from the Latin procrastinatus, which itself evolved from the prefix pro-, meaning “forward,” and crastinus, meaning “of tomorrow.”

Procrastination is one the main barriers blocking us from getting up, making decisions and living the dream life.

Recent studies have shown that people regret more the things they haven’t done than the things they have done. In addition, feelings of regret and guilt resulting from missed opportunities tend to stay with people much longer.

Think about the wasted times we all have spent watching TV, and not spent doing something we wanted to do otherwise. I’ve always wanted to write and published my stories/novels before I was an adult. Now look at me, I’m in my adult years and still no novel published. I am now working on accomplishing this achievement.

The thought of procrastinating each day as it comes along. There are many things that fill a day and we miss out on so much. Each day I never write or work on something I love to do. I fail to accomplish my dream and goals. Think of what you cam accomplish if you stop and think what you’d you if you live up to your dreams and stop procrastinating and work on those dreams you long to live up to all your life.

Don’t let procrastination take you down. You take down procrastination. Grab it by the horns and take it down. Take you dream and fulfill them. It’s what I’m doing now. My life is mine and my dreams are for living up to.

Warhammer Fiction

Long time ago before I ever ventured into anything to resemble a novel or poetry even I was an avid reader and gamer of miniatures. I loved to play Warhammer miniatures game. I would collect them by the thousands and had a huge collection in my loft in my home. It was fun and I would write short stories about the games we’d play with friends in Ireland and Belgium, Holland.

We travelled around Europe with our van loaded up with boxes of miniatures. There was four of us travelling throughout our travels in various countries as we found players to play with. We also played other games too. Warhammer was our game though. We found out that our family which we were trying hard to evade found us all the time due to our brother calling home.

Our brother was their spy which we never knew till our family came to take us home. Now we’re in America and away from our family. We lost our collection of many miniature. We couldn’t bring them here with us. We do however, read tons of Warhammer fiction. That is our passion now. The stories we read are the greatest ever read by us. We read many other stories that are Young adult and middle-grade. Warhammer is the best. We had one series and right now Robert Earl is one of our favourite Warhammer authors. I love his Broken Honour. I think this is the second time we’ve read the novel we got.

I know this is not one of our usual posts. This is about a rambling I do sometimes. Will try posting more often on here. chat soon….

New Story – W.I.P.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted and I’ve been extra busy recently. With Covid-19 and writing along with other real-life issues causing difficulties in everyone’s lives recently. We put our heart into our current story. It’s a kind of parody of story. I’ve put up a page about the story. I will post more about it later on in the month. It’s not the time right now.

We got out Covid-19 shot on Friday and we suffering a couple of side-effects, not that many though. At least we only had to have one shot. Back to the matter at hand. Our story it’s called (Fugitive of the Royal Court). The last name is Duckstien and they have hippy names too. It’s something different for us to write.

This story is fun and enjoyable to write. We at chapter five and it’s got lgbt aspects in it. We wanted them in the story as we are lgbt ourselves. This is what we believe should be more stories for middle-grade and young adult lgbt stories out there. Writing this stories will help us put that on the market. We will be hoping to finish this by the end of summer to autumn. This will be dedicated to our Dad as he is our inspiration along with our Mother-in-law.

Happy Writing…

Goodbyes

as the Danish say it Farvel. As the Dutch say it totziens. As the French say it Au Revoir. As the Germans say it Auf wwiedersehen. As the Greek say it Yasou. As the Hwaiian say it Aloha. As the Irish say it Slan. As the Italian say it Arrivederci. As the Japanese say it Sayōnara. As the Korean say it Annyeong. As the Latin say it Vale. As the Norwegian say it Ha det bra. As the Polish say it Zegnaj. As the Russians say it Do svidaniya. As the Spanish say it Adios. As the Welsh say it Hwyl Fawr. And as we say it in America see ya later alligator. In a while crocidile. Until next time. Goodbye, Calvin Klien Aka. Caley Knuteson.

When we want to say goodbye we have so many way to say it. For some of us we only know one way to say goodbye (see ya – or – bye). that is always how I say it. I know the Japanese and Russian ways I not fluent in either language I learnt both of these languages when travelling around the world running from our abusive family. We landed here in Indiana. We are somewhat happy here with our partner and best friend.

Men With Pens

Writing has a lot to do with how you view with your ability and talent. Talent and ability are the same thing to a lot of people. When you’re a guy like myself, you need a electronic device. That device will have a word processor. We use Microsoft Office 365. Word is hard thing to use when you’re our age. we’re a writer in the middle of menopause. Yes a man with menopause. That does sound very weird.

That however does sound like I’m a transgendered male. You will be correct in that assumption. I’m a FtM and I hope that doesn’t chase a lot of my readers away. If you leave and are Christian that means you weren’t a Christian after all that reading after all. Christians should be accepting of all kinds of people. I believe everyone has a right to be who they truly are. That includes being there true-selves.

Being your true-selves is the best thing in your lives. God made us the way we are and if someone doesn’t like the way you are, then they aren’t your true friend after all that. What am I ranting on about. I’m not sure. I’m a man in a woman’s body who loves writing and ranting on about a lot of different things. I have a belief system in God and Jesus and reading my Bible. In reading my Bible has us believing in God that We can be ourselves for that exact self for that reason. Due to GOD!!!

And Then There Were Two!

We been reading two books our partner brought home from the library. There was one by Elizabeth George. I thought it was by my favourite Elizabeth George the Christian inspirational writer of a ton of books for woman and young girls. I found out there are two Elizabeth George’s and one of them is a Mystery writer for Adults and Young Adults. I never knew of this second one.

This is not her first writing book. She has another writers non-fiction book. I have them both on my wish-list on Amazon. I have several wish-lists on my Amazon account, each one has a specific name. I’m one for naming things and putting things in order. My partner will say to our friends I’m a tad O-C-D. In some cases I can be, in others I’m not.

We, meaning myself need a lot of organization in our life. We never had that in our childhood. Anyway, we organize everything we get a chance to organize. It’s in our blood. Our whole apartment is in order if our partner would allow us to do so. They are a little messy to say the least.

When people say Men are messy they should see our partner she is messy. We’re the neat freak in her book. We’re the man in our apartment. Yes the name is Quinn and I’m male. I’m transgender FtM, and going through our transition slowly and steadily. I’m also a devote Christian. I study our Bible daily and worship God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost.

I’ve been told you can’t be the way I am and be Christian. I tell them that’s hogwash. I have been the this way since I was four years old and now beginning our journey into manhood. Being transgender and a Christian is the best way to be when you’re a writer of Children’s and Young Adult books. We need more books with LGBT themes in them.

Poem – What If I Died Today

What if I died today
Would anyone miss me anyway
What if I died today
And never said goodbye
Would you hate me because
I just wanted to stop the pain inside
What if I died today
Would you forget me
In just a few short days
What if I died today
Would you say good riddance
If you saw me lying there
No heartbeat or pulse
Just an empty, cold stare
What if I died today
Would you cry like I did
Every single night
Because I missed you too much
And all my memories wouldn’t quit
What if I died today
Would you realize how much
I hated myself
And how I was never really beautiful
What if I died today
Would you see my scars
And wish you’d have noticed
How I was in so much pain
What if I died today

Poem – Brand New Year

Another day has come, that another day has gone.
A New Years Beginning While the last year has past
What future awaits me on this new year.

Another life another story Will begin.
What suprises will await me
What downfalls will come.

Another year has come and gone
Another year full of ups and downs

I look forward to the the good things
Always expecting the bad
Nothing I would like to change
Take each day as it comes

A new future for me awaits
Another bright day for you.
Is there nothing better
Then waking up to see another year

So no matter what this year brings me
No matter what it holds
Another year has come and gone
Another year is here.

To all my friends and family.
Top all my fans afar
Happy new years to everybody
May it be the best year thus far!

2020 to 2021 a New Start

It’s been one heck of a year since March this year. We began with our new addition to our gaming collection Animal Crossing New Horizons on the Switch, then came the Covid-19. That is what ended it for almost everyone in the world the Covid-19; that did bother us a little, not much. We have one advantage over the rest of the world we like staying home alone. We like not having to go outside and mingle with the world. It’s not because we’re a gaming freak. We are one who likes to stay home and remain in that home alone and without any contact with anyone else unless we have to go out for food or medication.

This is something that has us confined to this apartment with our caregiver. They might like to venture outside at times. We put up a pretense for them that we need to uphold. We can never allow anyone to know that we detest the thought of going outside as one, we are wheelchair bound and we hate to be touched for the most part. It’s why we became a children’s Christian writer. We feel that one day one of our books will be published. It might mean we have to venture outside to meet people is the thing.

The thought of hugging and touching someone is horrible as it was the thing that caused us the most pain as a child. Now we use our childhood life experiences in our stories. They help us understand why we need to write our stories to help let children out there today know they are not alone. That there are others who feel their pain, their are others who will speak up. They need to tell someone, an adult they trust about the abuse they are suffering. The abuse may be sexual, physical, emotional, verbal it is real. You need to tell to make it stop.